28.09.2024 by Miru_ku
Hello, just took the test and got a 133, which is kinda.... surprising somehow. But maybe not, because I know I've always been unable to explain myself.
And people don't really complain about my emotional distance( not too much) because I usually try to make a conscious effort to look like I feel the same, or empathize when inside all I feel is...well, nothing.
I always thought there was something really wrong with me and I made a great effort to try and feel strongly about things like other people. Yeah, that didn't really work out, kinda just gave me a lot of dark moods when I couldn't, or when the thought of it overwhelmed me.
Not to say I don't think I have feelings, I do, and I recognize some, but deeper underlying emotions are pretty hard to bring up to light. And when I try to, by talking through a bad experience I had with someone, I sometimes shock myself when I start crying for some reason.
It was such a relief seeing that something like Alexi exists!